I just wanna

Nowadays really get sick of it.

First after the Academic Show, i am scolded for leaving my post during my duty time. Yea, these 2 days, i went off for 5 hrs average each day, and only returned when it's gonna end up in 2~1hr. Coz I know that i dont wanna care for it anymore!! Besides that, many societies have being well prepared, and thier works quite attractive(i am not saying my society not beautiful, but i am uninformative and i didnt give any scheldue to my group.) So i abanddoned my job and went enjoy the days.
At the end, when we are having the检讨会议, the president of society is so angry and cant stop scolding me. He is so mad of me, coz i said i can done it perfectly be4 it started. And now, i vanish when they are busy, and all my info and scripts, i just print it out without having a look on it. Even my group, i just ask them to come without telling them anything. To be honest, i lost my heart in the society. I remembered how interested i was when i 1st enter the society. And now, maybe coz of too many things never go according to plan in society, i really dont wanna to bear any responsibility, especially as a leader!



2nd, haiz, a late comer- Web Designing... It should be my the Web Designer in charge of it==, but suddenly she just asked one member to take de job fully... and she doesn't know anything bout web designing and asked me bout little of it.(both of them are girls) Since i can answer some basics, she is so excited tat i learnt be4 it n ask me to help her out. I agree, but that makes me regret after it.
This job should be preparing dunno since when, but she(1st person) just pass it to us be4 days to hand up!! OMG！！！ The联课 has ask tos in charge to listen up the orders month(s) ago, n we dont know anything bout that(since we r not in charge at 1st). N now asking us to finish it(all havent been done yet), and telling us tat gonna hand it up in days?! Cmon, gimme a break! I try to do it, but tell her(de one asked me for help) that i might be late, and she gets so nervous. She says tat de 1st girl has been pushing her so hard and she is so worried. Then she push me between minutes(FIERCELY). Well, all i can do is rush up tos stuffs, for benefits of us. Well, now 联课 has asked to change something... n i am doing on it.
All that makes me quite surprise is, ur way of taking care of it. It's not blaming(er.. maybe i am lying), but this doesnt seem to be ur way of managing these stuffs. Coz all i know is u will give us earlier than now, or just having de job done by urself..... but now u pass to us jus in days time... Maybe u r just too busy... But i never think that u given us job be4 gonna hand it in days. Everytimes u will give us quite a long time... at least 1~3weeks to finish it. Maybe u just havent asked me to finish things in days time==, but tell u that, i am a slowpoke, and works that gonna finish in a few days time, is a big challenge for me.(I may fail it)